The truth is that you have ten fingers and ten toes for a reason. Your mother counted them when you got out of the womb and said thank God. So, don't go and lose them doing something stupid. Life is precarious and so is incubation of precious life in the womb. Stay away from nuclear power plants and water with tritium as much as possible when trying to have a healthy child. Also stay away from mercury. Now, if God gave you ten good toes and fingers, is there anything that He will not provide for you to enjoy entirely for yourself like a husband; or do you perceive that you are lacking in some way that you should covet someone Else's(not having the faith to have your own? What did you do with your husband? Why is it that you urn after the covenants that you perceive someone is about to enjoy or enter as if you could not just be thankful for your own blessed union? You would be thankful for a husband and maybe even more so if you did not have ten toes and fingers so that he could dress and help you get to your job on time. You can have a husband because you received quite a blessed and complete being when He made you. You can have your own husband if you believe it. By wanting someone elses husband, you are confessing your lack of faith or worthiness in being able to have your own; always wanting what someone else is doing in faith and never receiving in faith what God has given you. Start the wheel again and spin it well because the issue quite often is not having the right man with the right heart motives for service, family and companionship with good education but the tendency to take advantage of the right man with double standards, one sidedness and a horrible selfishness that the right man could only tolerate for soo long. If he is the right man, he will not stay in an emotionally abusive relationship no matter how lovely your uh cushions. He is a graduate of some reasonably good school ( at least one). The priority though is companionship as the Lord has designed it so that you can enjoy God honouring companionship in a safe union without adulteration where, because of adultery, you can get two sets of cooties. That is no good and unfair to your partner who bargained for one set of cooties. Look at Elizabeth and Zacharias. God put the covenant first. Can you wait for the child? Also, don't worry about the offers of crazy sex in some news pamphlets or magazine shelf shopping catalogues. They are really offering you a singlehood. Who started the notion of copulation of more than one minute? It mught be possible but you might not be there every night with the man you love; especially after a workout or long day in the boardroom with his female boss( don't put your mind to the worse). Anyway, the offer of singleness via crazy expectations leads you to keep shopping to feel better in the aroma of shopping therapies because it is a little cold outside and the man who was with you last week( your boyfriend over the last year) to hold your arm in the cold wasn't android enough to keep up with the crazy expectation and neither is the next best offer who is a gym instructor or fire fighter; right? Anyway, now that he is gone with the crazy expectations you are back to shopping as you need to maintain some sense of cover and with one or ten fingers (for the remote control, that is) with a ring of union on it from the manufacturer, it should be okay. Who offered crazy expectations about copulation instead of encouraging thankfulness? While there can be ten reasonably right and suitable right persons, you can see that there could be a thousand since for every standard gauge garden hoe, there are thousands of pieces of wood in the bush that could just fit in to make that hoe work as designed( This hoe wisdom was gleaned from a good community elder). Remember that there is always a ram in the thicket. You laid a thousand fleeces on your couch purchased at Target and you couldn't trust that the first one as good enough with confidence but it would have covered you and that potential husband perfectly when watching movies. The reason why you did not trust it is because you deliberately, that morning, kissed your manager and stepped out of the nexus of trust and now you are not sure so you bought more and more and you keep hoping with every fleece to disprove your first confidence. Maybe he will ring my doorbell, you say. Remember that there is always someone prettier than yourself who is less conflicted and confused about the Lord. Receive in faith as God is providing and work out the emotion( unresolved) that you excuse as culture or as just the way you are; not really the way you are but the way you have chosen to stay as you would not deal with yourself in relationship if you ever had the chance; doggone selfish !!