A poem- you have the courage so just go ahead. It's not the size of the screw driver or plunger for a standard gauged drain that matters but how you turn it.

Shoesan, Mark or Anthony sitting in a tree where is ex boyfriend number 23?  It really didn't matter but I always break up when I get to that point of revelation that at three or four I was told to stop being stuck up. Did I get spat on by a girl at five why I live for their approval?
I don't really remember but being in a marriage covenant scares me. So, I buy lots of feathers and cook books. 
I wanted one man who I was with 20 years ago because he got closer than anyone else, I told him the length of my nose.
The answer, no one else knows  but only him; he was a good pastor
but I could not get over my fears. 
I felt so shafted.
It wasn't him but something my neighbor showed me.
I thought it was a snake without eyes but then my mother told me.
Someone else shared their snake but then I was 29.
He was proud of his snake but I knew it would not be mine.
I suppose they are all the same but why so much fear?
I know that God gave me a pear.
If God gave me a pear, then it was for a purpose
Not for lust but toward procreation, I go. I must.


Now I have no fear and no certainly no one shall only eat my onions.
They will shop with me and help me feed and care for my soon -to -be daughters and sons; nine months.

Now everybody wants a mother who can claim them at the front of the school.  It is not for the child to claim a mother but every child will probably choose the prettiest and nicest one if they could.  Ms. Migillicutty is a fictional mother from an 18th century play and was described with the said coveted features as it is. But, in competing claims for the child it is the mother as donned with the genetic or God-given right of claim and virtu  who endeavours at all cost for the child's life. Solomon and Moses' mother can attest to this.  But, the child may very well claim the mother who he perceives could uh kill him if it is that, for some reason, she does not feel accepted or acknowledged by him or her.

Now everybody wants to have someone shop with them.  Some people care for their spouse.  With birth being the miraculous moment and life enduring to child bearing age, marry the purpose God gave you in being here.  That purpose is to know Christ and Christ more abundantly. Marry the person who uh matches the purpose.  You cannot want perfect children though. What did you say?  Is God that precise? But, maybe if you pray for healthy children, you will remember how perfectly imperfect you were made because perfect children do not exist. Look at yourself and so here we are.  So follow your culture or did not God say he loves you? It is not that Christ and culture(400 years of lots of indwelling-look inside your neighbor's window at night and shake her husband's hand at the cotton gin.) shall never meet.  There was also the 17 year old boy down the way who was given bad books by the local police for some reason.  He was called by his mother as her one true friend  but it was really an emotional dependency and he cleaned her cup for quite often.  He did not want to let go and soon realised that he did not believe anyone else would really love him. It was not an "Ole in to ya Octupus" complex but the dependency built on the shame of cleaning her cup and he wanted to hide it; not believing anyone else would want to love him. One way out emotionally then was to want his own children because cleaning his mother's cup would not lead to that. He learned how to be dependent on God's forgiveness and acceptance. No matter how much he tried to hide that "something something" God knew and be sure your "something" shall find you out.  It is always good to love and to do unto others as you would have them do unto you.  So, you can trust your culture or you can trust God. Does it say somewhere trust in your culture with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding?;  in all your ways acknowledge your culture and it will direct your path? Well, where does your culture really want you to go? Are you happy? Is it "Romans 8" happy eternal feelings or is it the wisdom of a terrestrial kind with a limited time offer?  Be careful;  some churches promise you an eternity with your own planet full of your own spirit babies( they used to be called Mormons) but essentially you are promised an eternity with authority and dominion. But, Christ promises you his brotherhood in John 17 as joint heir in Christ Jesus.  Read Daniel 2 and Matthew 6; not a bad deal.  It's the same thing now really except you only have one planet as a Mason but you sit with the ruler of the universe as a Christian(Messianic Jew); not bad!  Some churches say that a young nice girl of 30-40 years old of child bearing age should wait until she finds a man with a house and only such a man is suitable for a wedding ceremony. But the wedding is not the ceremony.  Usually, the wedding in the honeymoon suite (there is an implicit covenant in what you do) follows the wedding ceremony.  But, only those who actually stay together have the honor of union regardless of the pattern of formalities and process that you choose.  Grand Auntie has six nieces and nephews and six great nieces and nephews.  The nieces and nephews had 6 wedding pictures and 2 divorce certificates.  One of them was divorced twice as a male astronaut for the swiss.  He missed Christmas or the annual church jamboree twice ( a spinster man filled in at those moments while he was gone-the mistle toe gets you every time) but his wives were alright with travel otherwise.  He also gave his third wife a book on how to avoid Fickle Emotions and the Pain of Childhood Abandonment Syndromes in Adult Life with Forgiveness by Bynam, Scott-Peck, Myer, and Jakes(editors). She should read it.  He learned well for the third wife and bought the Christmas flights early every year thereafter. The great nieces and nephews had 7 wedding pictures and 5 divorce certificates.  Its amazing how a committed handshake can make your brother think you got it going on with that cheerleader girl.  He will never believe you if you tell him that you only held her hand for 2.53 minutes before releasing..eh hmm.  Now, while you wait for the man with the house you are apparently entitled in this version of the word and gospel excluding Matthew 19 to be with uhm anyone for much more than that tap of the shoulder. What do you think? Shakespeare was betrothed before his ceremony and enjoyed his conjugal rights before the ceremony.  You have to see that some ministries are ministries for the angry and miserable and the miserable do love their company. You can go to the divorced adult or single adult ministry class there as well. If you can do all things in Christ, then just stay together. Read Romans 12, Job 31 and Psalms 101 then; put Cosmopolitan down and maybe read Real Simple instead.  Play in the sandbox together. Paint a picture and don't follow anything that asks you to covet your neighbor's stuff including his man, (man servant, that is) and his prettyish wife.  Remember also that she was a pretty girl but you passed on her 2 years ago and then five years ago as did your cousin. You didn't want her.  But now that she is with your other cousin who attends church and he reads the Daily Word beside a coffee and cocoa with her, you want her.  Well, do him a favour then and let him see who she is. He already had lots of conjugal rights and then she goes into ancestral patterns of "miss me/are you jealous?" games. 

Now you heard someone say baseballs and think baseballs in what you do. But there is no ballsbook or ballsbible. But, there is a New International Standards Bible. Follow the bible.  There is a lot of fish in there and fish are a symbol of fertility and being productive. Cast yout net on the other side maybe.  The Messianic Jews(Christians) even have a soccer night in the many church gyms and they show up looking really macho but also have those brotherly kind virtues.  They may even have dread-like hair like the soccer player Davids. 


You could call someone to say "waaaz up?" or "Alright Mate" or "How are you my darling love?"  They may just say hello and understand your desire and your lust for self-understanding and communal adulation.  You can just go and enjoy your Ken doll as well. He (Ken doll) says everything you want him to say and you can move his legs around your dinner table. He is also always on time; no traffic.  He's perfect!

Here is a quote from a Song by the Eagles

"There is good and bad in everyone
Come on lady dry your eyes; never like to see you cry
You just needed someone to hold you..
We're only human; flesh and blood as (hu)mans
So lets make a brighter day for you and me
There's choice we're making.. we're saving our own lives
For you make a brighter day for you and me.
You are the world..you are the children
You are the one to make a brighter day so lets start giving..."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1ysoohV_zA
Psalms 101 and Job 31 in more recent interpretations are all about family so take that; got to knock down this popsicle stand man and use some Lego this time.
It was just a little Battle field of the Mind, Acceptance-performance disco and approval addiction but I got it straight and a Lego kit now. It snaps in place and fits together; tightly.