I observed a phenomena once that involved blessing someone for their excellence and they would become angry; as if they did not want to owe you for anything.  They didn't have very good health but, they won! What an unbelievable spectacle?   It just VIOLATES  the  entire world or may we say, rather, that it made the whole entire world quite odoriferous.  This happens when your every second thought is about race and racial politics and you are always shifting from one racial community to another in spite of your acknowledged identity and this is to achieve "what you want" in the name of  some sense of nationalism. But, it usually means that human life and its value is the victim. You kill to show your loyalty. That includes some black people if you are black. Sometimes you kill a native or a white person Is this what you suffered or is this what you imagine your national identity suffered? Are you achieving national identity in the process? Only you would know. Nobody helped you with anything in this world so it doesn't really matter.